I like to think I could produce enough work to hold an exhibition of a reasonable quality within the next year or two. Nothing I have done yet is quite good enough. Maybe I will just get brave this year and somehow get it out there. Do I produce things that people just want hanging on their walls to look pretty? Is that a successful artist? Not for me it is not. Do I make work that is meaningful to me? Which is often not pretty, that will end up sitting in my garage waiting for another painting to go over the top of it again? Does anybody have any interest in what I have to say? If I am being honest, I am a socially awkward and oversensitive so it is the only way to express myself honestly. Can I combine the both to create something that the novice to the visual literate can appreciate. I have to decide do I care if anybody ever will appreciate it (I will always go between yes to no on this one).
Until then I am trying to paint the walls in my house. Painting over all of our children's smudged finger marks and where they have taken chunks out of the wall (leaving the honorary scrawled pen and sharpie growth chart though). A new coat, a fresh outlook. I am trying to change my thinking patterns. Geez wall painting is boring....oh I mean, it looks great when it is done!